I want the “impossible”.
I want to be madly in love with my husband, even when we have been married, like, FOREVER.
I want to have juicy, messy, screaming, mind-altering sex.
I want to spend six months on a sailboat with my family. I want to spend a year in another country, with another language. I want to travel the world.
I want to jump out of bed in the morning and feel excited about what’s to come.
I want to be completely honest and myself with everyone I come into contact with.
I want to melt my hardness, release my tightness and let go.
I want to love my life. I want to love myself. I want to plan road trips with my girlfriends. Drink wine in a vineyard in California. Go in a sweat lodge. Live in a body that is finely-tuned for pleasure.
I want to feel divine and full of vibrancy and power.
I want to dream really big dreams.
These sometimes feel like impossibilities. Not just the logistics of it all, but the sheer audacity of it. I would say that we are more comfortable with staying in the status quo than dreaming of that which we consider impossible. (It probably isn’t, by the way.)
How dare you want to be madly in love with your husband and have hot steamy sex with him when you know that that is almost impossibly rare and so unrealistic?
What are you, totally naive? The days of jumping out of bed, excited about your day, were for when you had no responsibilities and were young and single. Wake up!
HOW DARE YOU WANT THE IMPOSSIBLE!
BE SATISFIED WITH WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS GETTING.
CAN’T YOU JUST PRETEND, LIKE THE REST OF US?
SHUT UP AND SUCK IT UP.
WHY DO YOU THINK YOU ARE WORTH HAVING EVERYTHING YOU WANT?
Have you ever shut down a dream just out of the gates by throwing an “it’s impossible” wet blanket on it? How many times have you decided not to give any life to a dream because you couldn’t see anyone around you who was living it (so it must not be possible) or because the barriers you would have to navigate to get close to it seemed like too much work?
It is sometimes super difficult to cling onto the wanting of the impossible. To believe in the impossible. To even remember what the impossible is, when down in the dumps, exhausted and bored by routine, rolled over by monotony, under a mountain of too much work, stress, tedium and struggle. Or in the grip of a new and overwhelming challenge.
But NOT wanting the impossible hurts more. Because if we don’t have a place to reach to, what is it all for? If there is no beautiful golden light ahead of us, what pulls us forward? Without wanting the impossible, how do we know where “forward” is?
If we are not allowing ourselves to dream the impossible; to want to feel free, worthy, vibrant, alive, powerful, loved, honoured, excited, respected, sexy, at peace, happy with our bodies, authentic, creative and whatever else our own individual desires are…..WHAT IS THE POINT?
So yes. I happily, wantonly, unashamedly want the impossible.
In the Juicy Woman Revolution course, we begin the journey of wanting the impossible. Which really turns out to be the possible. To live a life that is fun. Meaningful. Sensual. Vibrant. Self-loving. Free. Wild. A life where we can, finally, be ourselves. Freedom and joy.
What is your impossible? In the comments below, I’d love for you to share your thoughts on what your impossible is and how you continue to believe (or not) in it.