I have a version of myself that I don’t like. This Sophie shows up in times of crisis. High stress. Challenges. Fear. She is not the Sophie I want to be. The Sophie that I know I am.
I start living in her when I’ve forgotten to nurture the Sophie I want to be.
Do you ever feel like there is another YOU fighting to get out? That you are so much more than….this you?
I used to think that this version of me was the only one I had access to…the one filled with self-doubt, self-criticism and judgement.
In this blog, I talk about what this version of Sophie feels like (not good), when she shows up and how I get back to the juicy Sophie I know I really am.
I think many of us think that the real “us” is filled with weaknesses, not worthy enough, scared, uncomfortable, weak, not good enough and generally a version of ourselves to avoid at all costs.
But what if the “real” you was actually the version you yearn to be? Confident. Self-loving. Fun. Relaxed. Authentic. The version of you that had the courage and support to be exactly who she is?
Sounds great, right?
When I am in the Sophie version I don’t like, here’s how it makes me feel:
- Full of doubt. I doubt myself, what I say, what I’ve decided and I second-guess everything.
- Critical. I criticize myself. I judge, I nasty-talk, I get really negative and it goes nowhere.
- Not myself. I start to act in ways that I think I should…instead of how I want to act. All of a sudden, I start doing what I think other people want me to do instead of doing what I want to do.
- Bummed. Exhausted. Depleted. Depressed.
This version of myself shows up as soon as I stop working my juicy tools. As soon as I stop doing the things that nourish my juicy. When I start putting everyone in front of myself. When I start self-sacrificing. When I have too many things on the go…and they are diminishing me, not uplifting me. When I haven’t connected with my body through touch or dance. When I have been on super-woman fast-track and caught up in production instead of pleasure.
And I know pretty quickly when I’m slipping back into default Sophie. And it doesn’t feel good. It makes my skin crawl. It makes me feel like I’m not at home…in my own mind and body. And I know that I have to start to grab my juicy tools IMMEDIATELY to get back on track.
Some of my favourite ways to reconnect include sensual dance, (here’s a woman who I am LOVING dancing to these days…), getting out of my house and having an adventure, planning something social, wearing a dress with lipstick, spending time touching my skin, journalling and flirting with strangers.
By the way, if any of those “tools” make you roll your eyes because they sound so….cheesy, I get it. That’s what I used to think as well. The thing is, cheesy works for a reason, right? The secret is, these small “cheesy” practices have the power to CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
In the Juicy Woman Revolution course, we start to custom-design our juicy tool kit. The tool kit is what we turn to for daily practices as well as emergency first-aid. It answers the question; “What do I need to do on a daily basis to be a juicy woman?”
Because, my sweet, this juicy living is work. Discipline. Practice. Consistency. Work. Work. Work.
But the work won’t matter. Because it’s the greatest gift you can give yourself. To become responsible for your own pleasure, fulfilment and juicy life.
In the comments below, I’d love for you to share any of the practices that you do to stay connected to the version of yourself that you want to be.