Inspiration

Writing from the darkness of domesticity…again

November 20, 2018

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin    As some of you know, I have been taking a break from work since September. Three months in, I find myself grateful for the extra time and space and also bristling against my now (even) more domestic mode. (Since there is nothing else to take my focus.) I hate domesticity. I rail against it. All the time. Almost every day. I hate everything …

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The indecency of pleasure…and a wading pool

September 28, 2018

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  I was at a wading pool. The water was so so cold and the weather was so so hot. I sat beside two little girls as they played in the pool. One of them dribbled some cold water on my hot leg and it felt delicious. They were delighted at my delight.  They spent a long time filling up their buckets with cold water …

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I ask myself, what would a masochist do?

August 7, 2018

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  First of all, I had to look up this word because you know when you think you know what a word means but there is a bit of fuzziness around it and you definitely would not go on a game show and raise your hand? I just knew that one of those words does the spanking and the other word gets spanked. Masochist. A …

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WHAT IF. What If. What if. what if. what if. what if…

May 29, 2018

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  I look around and I see so much of our strength. Our wisdom. Our fucking gigantic hearts and our deep deep wisdom that instinctively is drawn to heal and love. Our beauty…oh my, so much beauty. Our warrior courage. Our magnetic sensuality and our naughty, mysterious, breathtaking, joyful sexuality. And over that, I see the veil. The veil of self-doubt. Comparison. Overwhelm. Bitterness. Guilt. …

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I’m really good at self-care and here’s what I’ve learned about it

April 25, 2018

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  I am really good at self-care. It has been and is the work of my lifetime. Here’s what I have learned: Self-care has many levels. There is surface self-care and there is deep self-care. We have our own versions of all the levels. For me, a hot bath is surface. A movement session where I burst into tears and crack somewhere is deep. I …

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I can’t teach you…or me…this

January 10, 2018

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  When I started this business, I had this idea, perhaps unspoken but there, that I would teach a way to reach perfection. I would teach my way to reach perfection. Learn what I know, do it my way and the result of your hard work will be that you will be forever perfect! Sheltered from the storms. Fitter. Thinner. More beautiful. Happier. Cleaner. With glowy …

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Diaries of a retreat – Part 3/3

November 12, 2017

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  This is the final installation in my “Diary of a retreat” writings. Part 1 is here and Part 2 is here. Day 3 The theme for me this retreat has been belonging. A big challenge to the story I’m holding on to about not being worthy of love and belonging.  I know on a cellular level what it feels like to be the outsider. …

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Diaries of a retreat – Part 2/3

November 9, 2017

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  This is the second installation of my “Diary of a retreat” writings. You can read the first one here. Day 2 I don’t like this retreat. I am not feeling at home or good; I’m feeling uncomfortable. We had an experience with horses with the amazing Jen Zoe this morning and I had an uncomfortable realization. I thought the horse I had connected with …

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I aM sTuCk

October 21, 2017

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  I am going through a stuck period right now. And this is what I usually do when I’m stuck. Watch movies in the middle of the day. While eating a hamburger and chips. Get angry at the teacher because I was late for drop-off and because IT’S HER FAULT I’M STUCK! Rage at everyone. My kids. My husband. Strangers. Above teacher. And then smother …

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How to kill a desire

October 3, 2017

emailTwitterFacebookLinkedin  Yes, I’m into desires these days. If you didn’t read my post called “Audacious, scary, body buzzing, delicious desire”, you can read it here. What are desires? For me, they are simply things, feelings and experiences that I want. And, for me, they have a deepness to them that simply “wanting” doesn’t seem to have. A simple want comes from my mouth and a …

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